A new me? The old me reappearing? Hmmmmm

Ok so I mentioned the really great conversation I had with Ryan at Barnes & Noble. Unfortunately no email from him. How disappointing! There is also a guy that I've been the smitten kitten for named Adam. Now why I think this guy is so awesome I'm really not sure but he is quite the sweetheart. He's a pharmacy tech at the Walgreens Princess Bear (PB) and I use all the time. There is another tech there named Mark who is also a complete sweetie and they both really help out above & beyond. Last week when PB was finally released from the hospital I dropped her off at home & went to Walgreens to drop off some prescriptions that needed to be filled. Hit HyVee for some soft mushy food that might entice PB into eating and then went back to Walgreens. There were problems with both of the scripts. Adam knew that I was beyond exhausted so he got on the phone & refused to leave anymore messages attempting to sort out the problem but stayed on hold & demanded answers. Mark helped out as well and they got both problems fixed. I was so grateful! I bought them each a $15 gift card to Barnes and Noble (actually why I went in there on Friday!).

I was in Walgreens 3 times yesterday. I don't even remember why the first time. The second it was to drop off a script for PB so she might be able to avoid an emergency room trip next time she breaks out in hives big time. I worked yesterday afternoon and didn't leave until around 7pm. I saw that Adam's car was still at Walgreens so I went in to pick up the scripts. If nothing else I can always count on Adam to make me smile! I told him I wasn't sure if B&N was an ok gift card for the two of them. He then kind of shushed me up because they can get into trouble for such things. He did say that it was so kind of me and I really didn't have too. He was joking around that I keep PB sick so I can come see him. Well no but its about the only nice thing about her being sick! So I went out to the car and got ready to leave and the brave me came out again. I wrote a note asking him about some coffee he had told me about & asked him to call or text me. Well so far nothing and thats ok. If he does he does and if not so be it.

What I'm more curious about is this brave side of me that is showing all of a sudden. I don't know what has caused this to come out but I'm kind of liking it. I used to be so confident, bold and pretty impulsive. I'm not sure when that part of me went undercover but it has. My friend Susie was the one who reminding me of this. I keep on thinking, racking my brain for some sort of plan so PB and I can get our own place. I still want a little place in the country and am thinking about doing some dog breeding. Not to worry I'm such an animal lover no mini puppy mill here. I'm thinking of having some breeds that cross well with poodles so they are good for kids with allergies like PB. Airedales, Austrian shephards, Bernese Mountain Dogs and my all time favorite English Springer Spaniels!

I also I've been pretty buried in my Christian Kane CD. There is a song on there called: Something's Gotta Give HERE to listen

Here are the lyrics. They reflect how I'm feeling at this point in time.

Faded dreams and blue jeans
A Rangers cap with sweat rings
There’s a hole in the sole of my favorite boots
Well I’ve been at it a long time
Working on that bottom line
And every shirt I’ve worn, the collar’s been blue

One of these days I’m gonna jump off that shelf
Hit that ground runnin’
At least that’s what I keep tellin’ myself

Chorus.
I’ve been sitting on the fence for way too long
Warmin’ that bench as chance moves on
And believe me that ain’t the way to live
And this barely getting by is really getting old
And it’s hard to turn the wrench on a rusty bolt
But someday, somethin’s gotta give

Busted hands and broken land
Black gold turned to sand
And the whiskey is the only well that’s running deep
And the dust devils dancing on the mesa again
At the mercy of that west Texas wind
The tumble weeds they seem to know more than me

They always find their way right out of town
They never turn back
They keep on rollin’ and they don’t slow down

Man its been a long time!

Wow! I really forget how much I love the release of writing things down! :) The blog had been going on wonky on me for months and months. Our computer had been having problems too so I thought it was all related. Nope it just took one of those 2am a-ha moments to figure it out! Then with the holiday craziness and Princess Bear being ill things were a bit crazy. She finally returned to school after being gone since the beginning of December. Thats another post all on its own.

Today I really am doing some thearuptic writing. I stopped in at Barnes & Noble the other night. I had to grab a couple of gift cards to for our Pharmacy techs who have always been great but even more so lately. I also grabbed a copy of Backwoods Home Magazine. Since I was there I was grabbing a copy of Christian Kane's CD. The guy in the music/video section told me I had to check out there but he'd hold my things until I was done. I hate that policy but it turned out to my advantage. The guy in the CD/video department was named Ryan and cute in a very non-assuming way. He made a comment on my Backwoods Home Magazine and proceeded to have an incredibly cool conversation. We seem to have a whole lot in common. As I was talking to him & kept on thinking that I hadn't had an intelligent stimulating conversation with a guy in G-d only knows how long. As I walked away he called after me "It was really nice talking to you". I kept on replaying the conversation with him in my head thinking that it was so odd that I'd felt so connected in such a short period of time. I was also really amazed how similar our views seem. SO being oh so bold, which isn't like me AT ALL (anymore) I grabbed the phone and called Barnes & Noble. I asked for Ryan and told him I was the one in there a bit ago and gave him the exact address for Backwoods Home Magazine and told him again how much I enjoyed talking to him. He said he'd really enjoyed it too. I then got even braver and told him that it wasn't a come on (well not really!) and asked if he did Facebook. He said no he didn't. What???? Then I said I was going to give him my email addy for that and he just said he'd grab my email. WooHoo! I started to give it to him and he said he had to grab a piece of paper. So I gave him my email addy and........



have heard absolutely nothing! :( I can't even tell you how bummed I am. It was also a bit loud on both sides of the coversation so I don't know if he got the info correct but at this point I'm not so positive. I did go back to B&N today because, hey it is one of my favorite places to drop money after all! I've been playing around with buying the book Tomatoland and also want the first season of Haven. So I looked for Haven & asked if Ryan was working. I think I might have just taken myself into stalker territory. The woman started answering that Ryan wasn't there at all today and wouldn't be until and stopped. Ugh!

So in short I've realized a few things
a)slipping into stalker territory is beyond easy to do
b)intelligent conversation is one of the sexiest things ever (well I knew that but this was just a big reminder!)
c)that Barnes and Noble can very well be my downfall. I want to win the lotto so I can just have a field day!

Ok so I'm going to stop ruminating and get to some cleaning. Hopefully I'll be posting with much greater regularity. I have lots of stuff to talk about! Happy New Year!

Sarah