Ok...its official! Men suck!

Ok...totally new news to you, right?!!!? I'm still dealing with some fall out of my ex fiancee's son wanting to get in touch with his father. (For those who don't know/ remember the story you can catch up here

Cameron (Wayne's son) and I emailed a few times & I sent him a picture I had of Wayne. I told him I'd try to find his grandfathers number & send it to him. Cameron sent me his phone numbers but I didn't call. I couldn't find his grandfathers phone number. I was still looking through all my junk but couldn't find it. I didn't see what the point in calling Cameron was. Honestly, although I loved Wayne with all my heart I'm so disappointed and jaded at this point and don't think its fair to share those negative feelings with Cameron. In my mind although Cameron is 18 he's still a kid, know what I mean? Its just the mom in me coming out. Anyway, I sent Cameron an email the other day telling him I hadn't forgotten about him & I'd resume the search. Life is calmer with both Princess Bear & myself in school. I also let the friend of mine who'd actually found Cameron know that I was trying to figure out the best way of getting Cameron in touch with Wayne without me actually having any contact with Wayne. As a side note my friends and I are pretty damn good at tracking people down when we feel so inclined. My friend sniffed out Wayne's lovely (I mean that with every bit of sarcasm I can muster) step daughter (she's 28). I'm not going to say that my friend was handling things correctly or that she isn't somewhat overprotective but in all honesty the man but me through hell. This girl Ashlee (the step daughter) wound up being so rude to my friend. My friend explained that she was just trying to get Cameron in touch with his father. This girl was rude and hateful. Now my friends and I are all pretty much the same way, it takes a lot to piss us off but once you have you better head for the hills because you're done for. My dad always taught us to never start a fight but to always finish one. So Ashlee calls my friend who she doesn't even know a psychotic Navy Whore...not cool. It was time to bring it. What I don't understand is that I was the one who was wronged by Wayne. I was the one hurt by him. I was the one that was lied to. I was the one betrayed. I was the one that didn't do anything wrong. HE was the one that played the role of the coward and bailed. HE was the one that couldn't be an adult and obviously doesn't know from the truth and wouldn't know what it was if it hit him upside the head. I don't understand his contempt of me & why he seems to lie about me to anyone and everyone. When I contacted his father years ago its because I wanted to know where to send an award & some paperwork that had been sent to my house! It seems as though he's found a lovely family that is full of charm, upstanding morals and ethics and he's fitting right in! I know that I shouldn't let this bother me although I'd still love an explanation! I also know that Wayne has probably told Cameron some really awful things about me. I know he did it with his dad. It shouldn't bother me because Cameron is never going to be a part of my world. I just hate that Wayne could do this especially when I was just trying to help Cameron get some of the answers he wanted. Part of my wants so badly to show Cameron the original blog I wrote about Wayne and his disappearing act so he could see that his dad is really a selfish jerk. I'd love to save the kid from some heartache since Wayne doesn't know what commitment in any sense of the word is evidently.

Anyway, I just needed to vent this out! Thanks for listening! I'm now going to go try once again to calm my friend down! (She just wants to go out to CA and find Wayne & his stepdaughter and knock their heads together until they're both unconscious!....thank goodness we've outgrown the hop in the car we're going on a road trip phase of our lives!). Have a great weekend!!!

I'm so a sucker for these!

So in my daily (ok...I try to make it daily!) check of blogs Heather had done another quiz so of course I have to see what my results are. I took a few!

Your Dosha is Kapha

Calm and grounded, you are not prone to mood swings or anger. However, once you do get angry, it takes a lot to cool you down. You tend to think a little slower than most people, but your logic is astounding. Overall, you very loyal and trustworthy. You're not scared of being who you really are. With friends: You enjoy their company, but often listen more than talk In love: You crave connection and affection. It's hard for you to be single. To achieve more balance: Exercise vigorously (especially in the sun) and let go of attachments.

What's" Your Dosha?

The part about me being angry is so true. It takes a lot to really get me there but once I'm there...watch out buddy! I do love affection & connection & do dislike like being single for the most part...but I'm ok with it for right now!

Your Love Life is Like Pretty Woman

"I want the fairy tale" You believe that love is truly blind, unpredictable, and surprising. Two very different people can easily find true love. At least, that is how it will happen when you marry a gorgeous billionaire someday ;-) Your love style: Sensual and flirty Your Hollywood Ending Will Be: Surprisingly happy

What Movie Is Your Love Life Like?

Yep...this is so me! I'm waiting for my happily ever after!!! Anytime now would be ok!!! :)

Your Risk Taking Level: Medium-High

You're not afraid of a little (or a lot) of risk. In fact, you pretty much live to take chances. Consequences be damned, you are willing to go for it. And if it doesn't work out, at least people can't say you didn't try!

Are You a Risk Taker?

Yep...act first think later (Oh sh#t! What did I just do?!!!?)

You Are Fairly Normal

You scored 65% normal on this quiz Like most people you are normal in some ways... But you aren't a completely normal person. You're a little weird too! Why You Are Normal: You prefer ruffled potato chips When you're in a car, you prefer to be the driver If given the choice, you would choose to have more money over more time You rather be screwed over than screw someone else over You check your daily horoscope Why You Aren't Normal: You know a little about many subjects You prefer the moon to the sun You would rather be tan than pale You would not eat meat from a cloned animal You eat the cupcake first

What's" Normal About You... And What's Not?

Not sure about this one. I like the moon b/c I hate being hot and associate the sun with hot. I do have a sun tattoo though! I'd rather be tan b/c I'm ghostly white!!! I managed a tanning salon & really miss the free tanning! How could anyone consider eating cloned meat?!!!? I eat the cake first b/c icing is my favorite & I save the best for last! Cakes only real job is to hold up icing!

You Are a Bad Girl

You are 30% Good and 70% Bad You're a total bad girl, from your wild hair to tattooed toes. But you're too badass to even care if you're labeled "bad"!

Are You a Good Girl or a Bad Girl?

Hmmm, don't know what to say! Lock up your male friends?!!?

You Are An ENFP

The Inspirer You love being around people, and you are deeply committed to your friends. You are also unconventional, irreverent, and unimpressed by authority. Incredibly perceptive, you can usually sense if someone has hidden motives. You use lots of colorful language and expressions. You're quite the storyteller! In love, you are quite the charmer. And you are definitely willing to risk your heart. You often don't follow through with your flirting or professed feelings. You break a lot of hearts. At work, you are driven but not a workaholic. You just always seem to enjoy what you do. You would make an excellent entrepreneur, politician, or journalist. How you see yourself: compassionate, unselfish, and understanding When other people don't get you, they see you as: gushy, emotional, and unfocused

What's" Your Personality Type?

Yep, this is pretty much me through and through!

Your Ideal Marriage Proposal Is

A Christmas proposal, with lots of snow and city lights.

What's" Your Ideal Marriage Proposal?

This works! I'm the worlds biggest Christmas freak (dubbed the Queen of Christmas by my friends) so a Christmas proposal would work...then it would give me a year to get ready for the Christmas wedding I've always wanted!

On the soapbox!

Ok...for those of you that have read me for a bit (because I really haven't been doing this that long!) know that I have a tendency to get on a soapbox every once in awhile. This is one of those times guys! Sit down, strap in & enjoy the ride!!!!!!

I'm pretty sure that you all know by know that becoming more green is very important to me. I think its important for me but 100x more important that I do it for Princess Bear (PB). I'm a believer that what you put in your body and around your body affects every aspect of your life. My parents are to this day adamant that were I was working when I first got pregnant complicated my pregnancy and may have caused some of PB's health issues. Whether that is the case of not I don't know and I can't unring that bell. What I can do is make things as safe as possible for PB.

Last week I was on the computer and had the TV on. I wasn't really watching it but it was a Montel rerun from his living well series. It had the author of Healthy Child Healthy World on. He was very interesting. My mom & I were at Barnes & Noble on Friday night getting books to give as favors for PB's birthday party. I asked about that book and a few others. This was the only one they had in stock. It was my lucky day. This book is AMAZING!!!!!!! I really can't stress it enough....completely amazing! Packed full of really great, useful and better yet doable information. I think when people think about going green they get very intimidated. Theres a lot of information, it can seem a bit costly and at times a bit extreme. (My mom keeps on asking if she should plant a tree for my sister & I to hug). This book breaks it down in ways that you don't want to run screaming for the hills. It stresses doing small things at a time and then adding more when your ready. I can't tell even begin to explain how impressed I am with this book! It also has a great set of resource pages listed. If you can only read one book this year make it this one. Honestly! It will change your life and the lives of your kids! I won't lie and say the book is cheap (go the the library!) but its well worth its cost. There is also a website: Healthy Child

If you'd like to know some other resources I think are great feel free to drop me a line! (or stay tuned & I'll post!)

I'm so a child of the 80's!

You Belong in 1988

Wild, over the top, and just a little bit cheesy. You're colorful at night - and successful during the day.

What Year Do You Belong In?

OK....please tell me that I'm not the only one!

Ok, today didn't go quite as well for Princess Bear (PB) at school today. It was the first full day and she is still under the weather. As we're running around getting ready this morning PB announced that she doesn't want to be in kindergarten anymore. She wants to go back to Beans room...with Bella (her BFF). UGH!!! I remind her that Shea & Aidan are in her room and that she's going to have a lot of fun and learn many many new things! I also explain that she's a big girl and that a new room is a good thing. Today was also the first day of patching (her right eye has to be patched to help correct the vision in her left eye) in a long time. The Dr. gave her the summer off. Now I'm not loving the decision (though I sure was then!!!) So I finally have PB dressed and ready complete with eye patch. She is still not wanting to go. We compromise and I let her take her Strawberry Shortcake baby again (hey- it can go in the cubby right?!!?). I pick PB up from school and find out that she did pretty well. Some getting used to the new routine adjustments but nothing big. The teacher warned me that lunchtime was very chaotic and that PB is probably very hungry. She also said that PE went well for PB today...yeah!!! I hustle PB to the car and we head home. Princess Bear ate like she hadn't seen food in years. She started out with mac & cheese...ok no biggie. I was making trail bars so she added granola and raisins to her mac & cheese....can I say.....YUCK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Please tell me that my kid isn't the only one eating culinary delights like this! After snack and cuddle time my parents get home & its their nap time. PB wanted to play on the computer (can anyone tell me when my child became so proficient using a mouse?!!?). She doesn't want dinner (can't figure out why!!!) so its off to bath time. She wants Strawberry Baby to be in the bathroom....ok. Well nope not really! Strawberry wasn't sent home from school. I feel a meltdown coming. I grab her other SSC doll. This one is a "regular" SSC with hair down to its butt. Said hair is a MESS. Not kind of, not sort of but one huge honking mess. Thing one massive knot & we're on the same wavelength!!! So PB is in the bath and I start working on SSC's hair. I first drench it with detangler (ok...so against the green me but Suave apple detangler is so yummy smelling!) and set to work with a comb. I might as well been doing nothing. So SSC gets a hair dunking in the tub and a big time biolage detangler treatment. Ok....we might be getting somewhere. Now its time to bust out the big guns...heavy cream conditioner! No progress there...none, nada, nil. HUH?!!!? Back to the detangler treatment x2. In the midst of all of this PB also submerged SSC a few times. I get PB & SSC out of the bath and set to work with my Denman brush (we all all very thick hair in this family). After about 45 minutes of brushing SSC's hair is almost knot free. WOOHOO! THROW A PARTY!!!! I keep at it and we're good to go. Can I say that even knot free this doll doesn't have particularly pretty hair?!!!? Now, am I the only mom crazy enough to do this?!!!?

As for me...I'm a bit behind in chemistry. Actually going to sign off here & get cracking on that. I also hurt my other ankle but hey...that can be its very own blog!!!

Updates & more giveaways!

Sorry its been a few days....I'm still recovering! Princess Bear's (PB) birthday party was on Saturday.....at Chuck E Cheese. Next time I mention going there on a weekend please just shoot me on sight!!! That could quite possibly be the longest 3 hours of my life! On the upside of it Princess Bear had a wonderful time (other than when Chuck E himself was around & then it was back under the table!). My friend Monika gave PB a baby Strawberry Shortcake doll. PB has taken that everywhere the past few days. Up to and including.............drum roll please.....

Her first day of kindergarten. Today....enter sobs here.



My baby isn't a baby anymore!!! PB got sick yesterday. The kiddo made it through the whole summer relatively healthy and then the day before school gets an all out sinus infection. I think its because her allergies when into overdrive. She spend most of Sunday outside swimming with Maria's kids. She woke up yesterday just a complete little snotball (I say this with lots of love but seriously the kid was dripping, shooting and doing some other disgusting things with snot!). I gave her some Benadryl and was hoping for the best. I knew that I was in trouble when she took an over 3 hour nap. She woke up running 100.1 (everyone in this family runs very low and her average is 97.1). I was on the phone with the Dr's office ASAP. PB had a really rough night but wanted to go to school today so I decided to give it a shot. It was a short day anyway. All went well until I got to school to pick her up. I ran into my friend Nicole who told me that Kiernan had done very well that morning...yeah!!! Then they send parents of kindergarteners into the gym to pick up their kids. No Princess Bear. I look at Nicole and ask her if she sees PB anywhere. Nope. Trying not to let a full panic set in I finally get the teachers attention enough to find out where PB is. They sent her over to the Round (the airconditioned part of the building). PB said school was "fine". Ok...I guess all is well that ends well!




Now for some more fun giveaways!!!!! If you win anything please let me know!!!


Newlyweds is having a CVS gift card giveaway. Check it out here

The Savin Maven is also having a CVS card giveaway here

For a very cool Amazon giftcard check out Bargain Briana's blog here

Coupon Coup is giving away a coupon organizer here

Fun stuff & giveaways to check out!!!

Today I'm sharing a few blog giveaways with you! Please check them out!

Frugal Mommy of 2 girls is giving away a couponizer. So cool! Check it out here


Free Birthday Treats blog is giving away a copy of Inner Sumari here


Cool Baby is giving away some great workbooks. Awesome if your little one likes these (which PB does!) Check it out here


A new blog that I came across because of this giveaway for 3 Christian based Childrens Books is right here

Is it naptime yet?!!!!?

Yes, I am still alive! Just very rushed right now! Wrapping up the summer and then starting the new school year. I started classes on Tuesday. Chemistry...not my favorite thing and I have a tough prof w/ no discernible personality. Should make for a fun semester!!!!

Princess Bear add her kindergarten roundup the other night. For a child that loves school it didn't go well at first. She wouldn't even walk into the building. After some coaxing and then threatening to leave her outside by herself she finally followed me & my mom in. I had all the fun paperwork all ready to go and already knew who her teachers are because of her IEP meeting. (For those of you who don't know what an IEP meeting is its an Individual Education Plan meeting...all therapists, teachers, specialists and family are called in...hopefully only once a year! to plan for the next year). One of the things that has been stressed since the start of school last year is that air conditioning needed to be put in PB's new room. The first 2 years PB was in an all air conditioned part of the building that was called "the Round". Strictly special ed and therapies. Since PB is going to be in an integrated room this year there is no A/C in the room. Not usually a necessity but in PB's case HUGE necessity. (PB cannot regulate her body temperate and overheats very easily. If her temp isn't monitored she can have seizures or go into heat stroke...it doesn't take much either). It was written into her IEP last May but the Principal alerted everyone much earlier. As of today no A/C. They aren't sure when it will be ready (its a window unit for Petes sake! Get the unit there and my dad & I will put it in!!!) I'm trying to remain calm but I don't know how long that will last!

PB is wrapping up the summer in grand style...she's been swimming daily this week and her birthday is (finally!!!) going to be this Saturday. I'll post pics! On a sad note our neighbor Ryan is not staying in school but moving back home. PB is so attached to him so I'm a bit worried about him not being around.

Now for the comic relief of today. I got a call from my sister earlier this evening & she wanted to speak to my parents..no go she was stuck talking to me. Tyler had his 2nd swim lesson tonight and is a water kiddo just like PB. A little girl leaned over in class and poked Tyler in the eye. Tyler reached over and popped her little check...then they started holding hands (I don't remember but isn't this a bit early for 9 months?!!?). I've been having a grand time telling my sister that her son bitch slapped a little girl!!!

What does your name mean?

Thanks Heather...I love these!!!!

What Sarah Means

You are the total package - suave, sexy, smart, and strong. You have the whole world under your spell, and you can influence almost everyone you know. You don't always resist your urges to crush the weak. Just remember, they don't have as much going for them as you do. You are usually the best at everything ... you strive for perfection. You are confident, authoritative, and aggressive. You have the classic "Type A" personality. You are wild, crazy, and a huge rebel. You're always up to something. You have a ton of energy, and most people can't handle you. You're very intense. You definitely are a handful, and you're likely to get in trouble. But your kind of trouble is a lot of fun. You are truly an original person. You have amazing ideas, and the power to carry them out. Success comes rather easily for you... especially in business and academia. Some people find you to be selfish and a bit overbearing. You're a strong person.

What's" Your Name's Hidden Meaning?

6 UN-spectacular things about me

6 UN-spectacular Things About Me

Heather at Wanting What You Have tagged me for this meme (and in true Sarah fashion its taken me a few days to get to it...I suck I know!!!)

Now, on to the meme! The rules are:

1. Link the person who tagged you.
2. Mention the rules on your blog.
3. Tell about 6 unspectacular quirks of yours.
4. Tag 6 following bloggers by linking them.
5. Leave a comment on each of the tagged blogger’s blogs letting them know they’ve been tagged.

OK, here goes...

1) I really dislike being outside. My family calls me a vampire. I don't like being too warm or cold and I can't stand rain or bugs. Consequently there is very little time I like just being outdoors.

2) After reading number 1 this won't make sense but I like camping and miss it since I haven't done it in a very long time. I think it has a lot more to do with being away from all electronics and just being able to relax and read (which is what I do when camping!). I curl up on or in my sleeping back with a book or two!

3) I have a HUGE fear of abandonment/ being left. I think this is because my grandma "forgot" me in the store a few times when I was younger. Considering how outgoing I usually am this fear doesn't make much sense.

4) I can't stand not having something to read in the bathroom. If there isn't a newspaper, book or magazine I'll resort to reading the Kleenex box!

5) I sort my meals in to items and eat everything individually until done. I'm not one of those people that can eat a bite of turkey, then stuffing and then mashed potatoes.

6) Considering the amount of time I have spend on a control journal and brain in a binder I'm still crazy unorganized!!!


I'm tagging:

1) Suzy
2) Bethany
3) Jen
4) Lea

I can't tag 6 people....don't think I have that many reading! I'm pushing it with those I've tagged!

One more way to become sleep deprived!

Well, without trying I have found one more way to not sleep! Last night around 10:30I was sitting in the recliner in my bedroom watching some TV and trying to fall asleep. Now a bit of background; my bedroom is a corner room with one side being the side of the house with one window and the other exterior wall is a backyard wall with two windows. Well, I'm sitting there doing my best impression of someone trying to go to sleep at a normal time and suddenly there is a light outside my window. Like a flashlight kind of light. It moves around by my window and then turns off. HELLO! Totally freaking out at this point! I rush into my parents room looking for my dad. My mom is there so I ask where my dad is because he needs to go outside with the baseball bat. My mom is like no go tell your dad to call 911. My dad calls 911 and stays on the phone with them until they get here. The 2 officers thoroughly searched our backyard and our neighbors. They were very nice about it. They found no one in the yard but were sending extra patrols around the house and neighborhood. Needless to say I'm a bit freaked out! Just another fun filled day in my life right?!!?

Are you sure today isn't Monday?

Today is one of those days that I really just want to crawl back in bed and try over again. I think the fact that it followed yesterday didn't help. In all honesty I'm too PMSy and tired to rational about anything right now. I want a do over!!! That said I will say that my room and Princess Bears room is still nice and neat! I'm getting ready to gear up for starting up my business (little girls accessories) as well as possibly starting another (I have ideas for 2 more in the works!). Now I'm just trying to find some super cute blogger templates (Free of course!). If you have any great advice on finding a cute template please let me know!

I'm looking for something to go with the MySpace I have for the business (the little girl images)
http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=170022282