Friday, April 4, 2014

Spring Break.....and the living isn't totally easy

This week is Princess Bear's (PB) spring break.  I will say that I usually try to have enough "stuff" lined up to keep her amused and happy.  That makes for a happy mom.  This doesn't mean that I am spending the week schlepping her about.  There is something to be said for having fun at home.  She's a very artsy craftsy kid so that is to my advantage!  Usually as long as there is paper, markers, glue, paints and other craft items available she's a happy kid.  I'm not quite sure what has been going on this week but we're really butting heads.  I'll be the first to say that I'm overtired, sick of being sick and cranky.  It does not help that my daughter is wanted to argue about EVERYTHING!  I'm not kidding....everything!  If this is an intro to the teen years I might have to reexamine my decision of getting off my antidepressants.  If nothing else the meds helped me chill.  I digress.  PB is an only child that is pretty good about entertaining herself.  She loves putting on music and dancing around the kitchen.   She loves watching TV.  To the point that I call for screen free time.  We've also done some fun things this week out of the house.  She's gone swimming several times, went out to lunch and shopping with her best friend and to play with her cousin.  It just seems as though telling her no sets off a huge reaction.  Usually when I tell her she can't play online.  I'm not a big fan of letting her loose online and this is just hardening my resolve. 

On a different note I'm also wondering if there is any decision that I can make about my daughter that will meet with my mothers approval.  Why I'm still seeking her approval is a completely different topic.  Today I had to take PB to the urologist.  PB has had issues with her bladder and kidneys since she was little.  She was on a 3 month course of antibiotics to deal with some bladder issues.  The have not resolved.  The Dr. talked about doing a procedure that would entail putting PB under anesthesia and checking her bladder and kidneys.  I'm not a huge fan of putting my child under unless completely necessary.  I've read and seen too much to take anesthesia lightly.  I asked what the other options were.  The Dr. said we could increase the dose of the antibiotic and try a 6 month course.  I'm not so naive to think that this is without its own risks.  Especially since PB is allergic to 2 of the 3 major classifications of antibiotics and having her on them unnecessarily can cause issues such as drug resistance.   I still decided that we'd try the antibiotic option first.  I filled my mom in and she wasn't completely thrilled with my decision.   It's times like this that I'm amazed that I'm not a raging alcoholic.  I'm not kidding either.  It's always lose lose whenever dealing with my mom.  I'm a person that has control or lack of control issues.  IE spending the better part of my 20's drunk because I was having fun.  Ugh!  I think it's time to go meditate and pray to G-d it brings some peace!


Leigh said...

That is so difficult about PB. It's never easy to find a "right" decision when it comes to problems like she's having. I know doubt and worry try to nag. Sounds like she's a trooper however.

And good for you for not running around for amusements but finding them right at home!

Sarah said...

Thanks Leigh. Yesterday the Dr's office called back with even more news and none of it particularly good. She has staph infection in her urine and she's apparently resistant to the antibiotic she was one. The Dr. put her on a hardcore antibiotic for a week and then a different one for the long term. She definitely is a trooper!